not a bad day so far....got lots of sleep, so that makes up for a lot! :)

these days, i'm feeling a little more comfortable in my own skin. i do have days, however, where i'm really wanting to have some down time that doesn't have to start after 8 o'clock at night. i think most people would agree with me that running from 6 am to 8:30 pm solid five if not more days a week is tiring and would get a person down. in order to have fun, i have to stay up late, therefore sacrificing my health.....which i've done! LOL

i know that part of this is my own fault....i've decided to let the twins self-wean, and am tossing up the idea of trying to nurse up until next year, too.....the whacked out reasoning behind such a decision?? i can't afford the RSV booster....i looked at the sheer amount of what it would cost us out of pocket.....$400 bucks a month AFTER insurance did it's thing!!! oh...did i mention that this is PER CHILD?? it would be my hope that if i nursed them that they would be a little more resilient to respiratory infection.....they've had their bouts of problems this year, and both are on nebulizer treatments. my thought is that perhaps i could nurse in lieu of the shots next year. and, for those of you who question their susceptibility to RSV at this age, babies born at such an early gestation (like 26 weeks), are susceptible for far longer than their full-term peers. hence, we might have to deal with the shots next year, if not for the simple fact that we've had so many issues this year. urgh!! when will it end? i moaned "i can't wait to treat them like normal babies!!" to a fellow dad of a preemie last night...to which he replied "it's never going to happen!" great! LOL

oh, well....this too shall pass, and pretty soon we will be treating them as normally as a person can when they still see the 1 lb. 10 oz. girl or 2 lb. 2 oz. boy behind the big, chubby, playful kiddos.

and pretty soon, mommy will be able to go away for a day and not have to worry about coming home in the middle of the day to nurse them! and the same mommy will be able to get out of the house before 8 pm to have some fun of her own. i think that same mommy will be a lot more happy, too! ;)