An Overdue Update....

....so, I've not heard from my biological mother since my letter. No call on my birthday, no further contact whatsoever. I suppose I'm still undecided on how I feel about that, despite the fact that I'm justified in my hurt feelings and anger. I suppose it just stinks that I know that this is the woman who dropped me from her uterus. In some ways I feel like I'm similar to her. I hope that these are the good qualities that she has, though I know that some of the bad ones are also there. I just hope that the worst quality that she possesses...to be so oblivious to her own children...is not something that I have. It does tend to make me hyper-sensitive to when I'm not being the "perfect parent." During those times, I get very down on myself. *sigh*

...on a much lighter note.... I finally started feeling better at about 2 o'clock this afternoon. I still want to go to bed soon, but am not feeling like I'm going to hork.

...to change the subject yet again, I went to parent-teacher night tonight. Collin is in fourth grade this year. I am having a hard time believing that my baby..the boy who made me a mommy...is going to be TEN this year. Double digits, folks! My boss (the one I knew prior to going to work for him) were talking recently about having kids outside of marriage. He called it a big fuck-up. I asked him whether he was calling me a big fuck-up since that's exactly what happened to me. I then remind him how many many people have sex outside of marriage. Some people don't even take the precautions against pregnancy. I did. I still got caught. And, if that's fucking up, it has been my favorite mistake in life.