Life as a reformed Zookeeper. Now living a life as a working mother who dabbles in karate, scrapbooking, and Coors Light!

Thursday, September 07, 2006

An Overdue Update....

....so, I've not heard from my biological mother since my letter. No call on my birthday, no further contact whatsoever. I suppose I'm still undecided on how I feel about that, despite the fact that I'm justified in my hurt feelings and anger. I suppose it just stinks that I know that this is the woman who dropped me from her uterus. In some ways I feel like I'm similar to her. I hope that these are the good qualities that she has, though I know that some of the bad ones are also there. I just hope that the worst quality that she possesses...to be so oblivious to her own children...is not something that I have. It does tend to make me hyper-sensitive to when I'm not being the "perfect parent." During those times, I get very down on myself. *sigh*

...on a much lighter note.... I finally started feeling better at about 2 o'clock this afternoon. I still want to go to bed soon, but am not feeling like I'm going to hork.

...to change the subject yet again, I went to parent-teacher night tonight. Collin is in fourth grade this year. I am having a hard time believing that my baby..the boy who made me a mommy...is going to be TEN this year. Double digits, folks! My boss (the one I knew prior to going to work for him) were talking recently about having kids outside of marriage. He called it a big fuck-up. I asked him whether he was calling me a big fuck-up since that's exactly what happened to me. I then remind him how many many people have sex outside of marriage. Some people don't even take the precautions against pregnancy. I did. I still got caught. And, if that's fucking up, it has been my favorite mistake in life.

5 Comments:

Blogger cmhl said...

I can't believe he said that (about the "big fuckup")! he sounds like a real loser!!!

10:02 PM

 
Blogger a very tired mommy said...

not a loser, just opinionated. i asked him to clarify himself and he said that it was more that he couldn't imagine being in that situation.... it's all good. ;)

9:47 AM

 
Blogger nain said...

I'm sorry you still haven't heard from your mom....I wish that situation was better, but you had every right to say what you said in that letter. It just may take some time for her to swallow her pride and truly understand it. Love you!

11:54 AM

 
Blogger nain said...

can you have a case of the Mondays on Friday?

2:38 PM

 
Anonymous Judy said...

Help! I have started stamping and I can't stop! rebecca was not quite right, I went to deals and bought Dominoes, but they aren't the ones I was looking for. They are actually better! They are smaller and slightly off white/ecru colored. I have been stamping nature things on them, bugs, leaves, etc....and I am in love. I am going to find every deals in town and buy them all out. I am serious. Don't laugh, you may have to be on a shopping mission for me or with me!

5:35 PM

 

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