Am So Confused....

....I have no idea what to do with my life anymore. I do know that I'm having a hard time figuring it out....and that I will have to pay a mint in daycare should I go back to work during the day....and that I'm working entirely too much right now. Aside from that? I am so lost.

....So I'm going to take the next few months to soul-search. And to utilize the high school girl that is coming into my house for two hours each day. I will go on any interview that I feel like I should explore the options to, but I will not settle at this point.

...Over the next few months, the dynamics of the daycare are going to change anyway. My Brazilian boyfriend will be off for a month while visiting his family in Brazil, and my longest-running daycare gig might comes to an end because he's going to be a big brother. They might either drop two kids to part-time, or they might figure out how to eliminate daycare altogether. Which might bring me down to five kids who come on a regular basis. It might make life a little easier, despite the fact that the days will still be long. I'm just at a huge loss of ideas right now. But I do know that I have a lot of people who are being a great support to me, and I hope that they know that they are.

....Stay tuned for more tales of lunacy! ;)