More of the Nothingness that is My Life

I love my kids....and I love the daycare kids. But I'm suddenly feeling cooped up inside my house, losing any brain cells that I've worked so hard to accumulate all these years. I'm feeling anti-social lately, too, which is some sort of social inertia that is coupled with being a stay-at-home-daycare-provider.

Am I going to be remotely close to what I was when I stop being the Zookeeper? Will I be a happy and useful office employee, or what should I do after the twins start full-day school? Is is really fucking possible that these life-changes are three years away?

Am feeling very reflective and cooped up today.....can you tell?