as i sit here, it's less than twelve hours away, and my babies will be two.....i feel as though i've lived a thousand lifetimes since then. so much in the lives of me and my family has changed over the past two years. some for the better and some for the worst. but most importantly, we have the twins here with us, and they're doing so very well. who would look at them and know how far they've come. i go through the store with erin, and everyone just comments on what a cute girl she is (even though she has boogers in her nose...bad, bad mommy that i am...lol), but they don't know that she was just 1 lb. 10 oz. at birth, and smelled like antibiotics and was so swollen that her skin felt tight the first time i held her (when she was over a month old). they don't know that griffin's pda valve didn't close on it's own, so it flooded his lungs the day after he was born, and he spent the next week on an oscilating ventilator. they didn't know that aaron and i hugged eachother and cried as aaron pledged that he would still love me no matter what happened with the babies.
and now they climb up on top of everything, look at me like i'm not talking when i tell them to get down, and give me the best kisses and hugs that a girl could ask for.