Life as a reformed Zookeeper. Now living a life as a working mother who dabbles in karate, scrapbooking, and Coors Light!

Sunday, January 23, 2005

OK, I'm coming to this thought again.....so...if you're wanting to read funny anecdotes from the Zoo...stop reading now. If you're wanting the deep shit I probably should just leave to my own little psychotic mind, please...endulge yourself.

The topic comes up tonight about Collin's First Reconciliation....yes...we're Catholic....and no...I don't really believe in telling all my sins to a priest to get a penance and be absolved of my crimes....which are so many anyway! ROFL....in fact, I'm having doubts about it all (and for the love of all that is good, Nain...please don't mention this to your parents!!!). Serious doubts. Agnostic, leaning toward Atheist doubts. Honest to goodness, I'm having trouble grasping all this spirituality and religion stuff right now. And, I think that most of us deal with this sort of thng. If you haven't, then you're just too good and should stop reading about me....LOL.

I know in my heart that we are supposed to be good people....it just makes common sense.....those that aren't good aren't necessarily happy or healthy.........but all the rest of it....could we be trying to follow all these rules (some of them conjured up by people like ourselves from long ago?).....just to die and have that be it? Is there really a Heaven and Hell, or is it really ashes and ashes and dust to dust, and the worms for us all?

If you're going to leave a comment judging me for these thoughts, then I'm telling you right now to save your typing energy and that you can kiss my ass. If you want to lend support to my little identity crisis, then please....feel free.


1 Comments:

Blogger diligent law student said...

The way I see it, Steph, is we never really know if there actually is something after all of this, but it gives you something to live for every day. You aren't the only one who has those thoughts - everyone does, it's totally natural and totally ok. Bad things happen to people you love and it can make you wonder "if there is a god, why would he put them through this?" But believing there's something for me after all of this (I often joke that we ARE in "hell" - it's called earth) gives me something to look forward to every day.

This coming from a liberal lawyer whose catholic and damned to hell anyway (ha ha)

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