I've Officially Decided....

...that I really HAVE to get a new job. The interview went well enough this morning, but it does depress me that I feel like I'm getting to the point where I can't string together an articulate thought. I've been off the adult rollercoaster long enough to where I'm getting frightened to be out in that "other world". Don't get me wrong in the slightest, though. I WANT to be out on the ride. BUT, I'm scared. Scared of looking ultimately stupid.

...So if this interview is as ill-fated as the rest of them have been, I'm pounding the pavement the nanosecond that Aaron gets out of school. I'm sad that I have to stop and leave these parents to find new care. BUT, I can no longer keep going the way I have been. It's not healthy in the slightest. I should have been a little more forceful from the onset of this career, but it's of no use to look back now. I have the future to live for, and I need to start living again. Otherwise, I'm afraid that there won't be much of a future left for me.